Alan's Blog

I Proud of My Culture, Heritage, and Origins!

2011-12-02T23:26:00.000-06:00

It is crazy that once you become a part of a Counseling program. You learn a whole lot about yourself. This semester, I have taken a class on Cultural Diversity. Its definitely been one of the best classes I have ever taken in school. Throughout the beginning of the class, I started wondered whether or not that I was ashamed of my culture and heritage. I always wondered whether I became a Christian because I lived in America. I even wondered if I went by name Alan, instead of my real name Ahillan because I was embarassed or ashamed. I believe that my parents were scared that I would lose my cultural identity and be tempted to blend more into this society.

Throughout this class, I started learning more about my family and culture. My parents were born and raised in Sri Lanka, so they experienced and were surrounded by a certain lifestyle, worldview, and beliefs. I learned that things are so much different in the Western culture than in America. Their thought processes and beliefs are completely different than the way that people think in America. The shocking thing that I learned through this process is that I still possess these Tamil traits. It is weird because I never lived there, I felt like I lived a completely life than my parents, and I didn't try to be that way. However for some reason, there was a part of the culture that was a part of me.

When the movie Bend it Like Beckham came out, I went to the movies and watched it with my mother. When I watched this movie, it reminds me so much of my life. I was a Tamil kid who was expected to live our Tamil traditions and expectations while living in America. These two cultures have different lifestyles. I have traditional Tamil parents who raised me in thier culture, while living in the American society and culture. I think my parents didn't want me to lose my Tamil heritage. When I started living my life in certain ways that reflected the American culture. I saw them getting upset and disappointed in me. I believe that they thought that I was losing my Tamil identity.

I understand the reasons that my parents were upset that I became a Christian. I think they believed that this culture changed me. Throughout this semester, I wondered whether this culture impacted my beliefs in Christ because especially living in the bible belt. I realized that it was God who changed me and came after me. I was raised and taught to be believe Hinduistic beliefs. Almost 17 years of my life, I lived my life thinking and believing that way. God worked on my heart and he revealed his truth to me. It was part of my culture and identity that let to this process.

When I think about this, it is so cool how amazing, brillant, beautiful and wonderful that God is through this time. Despite different cultures and worldviews, God is God and His truth can apply to any culture. It may be more difficult, but God still can change anyone. I believe that more and more, when I grow and learn more about Him. When I realized this, I realized I don't have to be ashamed to be a Tamil. It is part of who God made me to be. I hope that I can continue to maintain parts of my cultural self and bring glory to God in the process.

Gஒட் Bலெஸ்ஸ் (God Bless),
ஆலன் (Alan)

My Texas! My Rangers!

2011-11-04T11:07:00.000-05:00

I have done a poor job updating my blog. I have thought about a couple entries, however I didn't know if it would be the right time to post those entries. However, I wanted to express my journey, feelings, and emotions on the aftermath of the hardest sports loss that I have ever experienced.

Most of you know that I love My Texas Rangers. I have been a fan since I first went to the Ballpark in 1994. If I could trade the Dallas Mavericks Championship for a Rangers World Series Championship, I would instantly do it. I love the Mavericks, but I love the Rangers more. Last Thursday night, I thought that one of my dreams was going to come true. My Texas Rangers were going to win the World Series. Throught the game, I thought and believed that they were going to win that game 6. I felt like they put themselves in the best position to win the game. As you know we were at 2 separate instances, we were 1 out away from winning the World Series. However our bullpen blew it. Also the Cardinals would not give up and kept fighting. Much respect to their team.

After we loss game 6 and then eventually game 7. I was pretty devastated and it was probably the 2nd hardest thing that I have gone through all year. A lot of people will say its a game get over it. Kind of ironic that those people would celebrate their accomplishments. If you are a sports fan and a proud member of Rangers nation. Especially when you stuck with them through the years where we just awful. I don't think you completely understand the huge accomplishment and achievement to be World Series Champions. It is ok to be devasted and disappointed because we were so close.

After the loss, I wanted to sit in a well and never come out. However, I realized that I needed to accept what happened and have peace about it. Despite being so close, if somebody told me in 2006, that 5 years later we would go to back to back World Series and lose. I would still take that situation over being in last place in the West Division. Unfortunately the team didn't get that last out or strike, but I am proud of them. They played hard, with excitement, and it is a lot of fun watching them play. It used to feel like you were a fan of them , but it was dreadful watching them play. Now its a completely new experience, which is fun, awesome, and epic. As a fan, it is awesome to see everyone wearing Ranger shirts, sold out crowds, energetic and loud fans.

My hope is that Rangers Nation would continue to grow, that we would gain a consistent fanbase throughout the rest of this decade. I hope one day we will be rewarded and the Rangers will win that World Series. Those hopes can only happen in the future. Time to get ready for a new season of Rangers baseball. Back to optimism at its best!

Thanks Texas Rangers for another memorable and amazing season!

Remember 9/11

2011-08-28T11:30:00.000-05:00

September 11, 2001. Its werid there are a few days where you can almost remember everything that happened on that day. I was a junior in high school. It was right before school where this friend of mine says 2 planes just crashed into two world train stations. I was like oh thats kinda weird. Then I went into Mr. Drury's 1st period English class and we learned that two planes crashed into the world trade centers in New York. Then he drew an illustration, so that everybody would understand. Eventually we watched the news on live tv. We saw the coverage and we actually saw the trade center crash down. It was crazy it was like Independence Day when the alien spaceship destroyed the white house. The rest of day was a mournful day. It was a sad day where nothing else seemed to matter at all. I remember how they cancelled tv, sports for an entire week.

I was reminded of that day when I watched the movie United 93. It was weird watching a movie and knowing exactly what is going to happen. You knew that the terrorists were going to take over the plane. You knew that the passengers would fight back, however that they still weren't going to make it. I kind of got emotional watching the movie. Its hard not to when an event kills hundreds of people. This was probably the first time where I just started openly crying during a movie, especially this one part where the people would call their loved ones and they knew they were probably not going to make it. I put myself in those shoes that we really know when our time is up in this world.

I am glad that I watched this movie, eventhough it brought me back to the time of those events. It reminds me of the families that lost love ones. I should pray for their loses. I pray that I could be as a strong and courageous as Todd Beamer and the rest of those passengers for fighting back against evil that day. Really they are all heros because they probably saved move lives through their actions. I think of that verse from 2 Timothy 4:7-8:
"I have fought the good fight, I have finished the course, I have kept the faith; in the future there is laid up for me the crown of righteousness, which the Lord, the righteous Judge, will award to me on that day; and not only to me, but also to all who loved his appearing."
I think the verse puts in perspective that we don't know when our lives are finished. What would we do in our last moments on this earth? We got it make it count and not waste a second not worshiping God.

God Bless,
Alan

Will I Ever Get Married?

2011-08-06T23:41:00.000-05:00

I just went to one of my friend's weddings and it was great. I am really happy for both of them. I can't wait to see what God will do in their lives. Its funny, I went on a mission trip in 2004, I was 19 at the time and I saw almost everyone of those members today. They are all almost married, which is crazy to think. I am one of the few left behind in that group I guess.

If you were to ask me that question about 10 years ago. I would say definitely yes. I probably imagined that I would be married by now. Its funny that life doesn't work in ways that you don't always imagine it. One of my closest friends has had his first kid, while he was 25. Its crazy to think about other's lives in that regards and my own. I am not going to lie and say that I haven't been discouraged and pressured at this time in my life. I am getting closer to 30 now (which I am 4 years away from that). I guess my looks are fading, my hair is thinning, metabolism is slowing, and my youth is almost gone. Sometimes I wonder if I will ever get married? I don't know whether or not I will be like Paul and it is better for me to be single. I like to think no because I can't stand the fact of living alone. I have no idea what God has in store for me in this area? I will say this that I do trust Him with all my life. It means trusting him, even to the points where I don't understand.

I will say this, eventhough I have my doubts and wonders. I still believe that I will one day get married. I feel like one day I will meet that special person or maybe I have met her and don't know it yet. I pray to God that He would lead me to that day once I am ready. Eventhough I don't want to be single forever. I rather do that then marry someone and not love them or dread everyday for the rest of my life. Psalm 37:4 "Delight yourself in the Lord; And He will give you the desires of your heart." God is good, He knows my heart. So far now, I am single, but one day who knows hopefully I'll get married. I'll read this blog how many years later and see how much God has blessed me and knows best for my life. All I know is the womans gotta be a P31(I got that from camp).

God is Good All The Time (All the time God is Good),
Alan

Why I Go To Church?

2011-08-01T00:47:00.000-05:00

The other day I was going to the gym and I ran into one of my old friends from college. We got to talking and the conversation mainly tailored towards church. We discussed some theology and what not. My friend ended up asking me a question which was Why do you go to church? The church she was referring to was the church I have been attening the past 8 years (wow that makes me old). I never thought about that before. Past few days I have been pondering that question. Why I go to church?

This church I currently attend, the beliefs and foundations are Calvanist. I am not sure whether I would consider myself a Calvinist, Armenianist, Fundamentalist, Naturalist, Khabalist, Supernaturalist, Extraterrialist, and so on. I don't know which category I fall into or what I would classify myself in that regard. The question made me think about how for almost the past decade I have attended the same church. Sometimes I wonder what kept me at this church in particular. I learned that I love this church. I believe that they teach scripture how it needs to be taught. They believe that all Scripture is God-spoken and without error. They teach and lead the church that way. I never really understood the bible, until I came to this church. Also, this church is where my walk with God has really grown. The person that I am today is a lot to do with the church for the good and bad. I guess the main reason is the people. I love the people that I get to meet, serve, and become friends with at the church. There are so many people that love God and pursue Him with all their heart. They are people that I need in my life. I never feel content where I am at in the church, I always feel challenged to keep running the race. I guess those are some reasons that I go to church. I am thankful for those years and the years to come.

God is Good, All the time, All the time, God is Good!

Amen,
Alan

Wanting To Be Wanted

2011-07-24T23:07:00.000-05:00

One of my spirtual gifts is encouragement. Its a great gift, I am not going to lie. I love helping to build and encourage people. I love giving people hope or joy in thier life in somehow. You know one of the disadvantages to my gift. I like to encourage people and give a part of myself in that way. When I don't receive it in return, then I struggle with that. Sometimes when I do hear the encouragment, its not enough and I always feel that it could be better. I guess my gift can be my curse as well. You know am I saying that it is ok if no one encourages. No, but at the same time I got realize that I can be living off of praises from man. I realize it is wrong of me to expect and live off praises from people. I need to be living to the satisfaction of God my Father. The only reason, I have the gift in the first place is because God gave to me. Next few weeks and probably next part of my life. I need to ingrain Colossians 3:23- "Whatever you do, do your work heartily, as for the Lord rather than for men".

Its About To Get Real

2011-06-27T21:10:00.000-05:00

I never want to blog about negative things in this blog. I always want to blog about uplifting and positive things. I want people to be encouraged and moved by my blog posts. I realize something that life is not always uplifting and positive all the time. Problems, issues, and stuff happens in life that can really put a hindrance on things. Its up for debate whether to blog or not blog about it. I don't want to come off as complaining or whining, but at the same time I want to be real and share about struggles, hardships as well. Others may relate and may be able to offer wisdom through such a thing, so lets give this a shot.

This year has been one of the hardest years of my life. There has been some amazing things that has happened. Overall this has been a tough year on myself and probably a lot of people. While these tough situations has occured. I want to be strong through this time to help the situation and make it better. Hopefully put a positive light on things. However, I see more and more each day that I fail at this daily. I always believed in not being selfish and putting others first before yourself. Its so hard to put others first, when yourself is not doing so well. I wonder if its selfish to consider your needs and wants that currently aren't being met. Its easy to think that you are selfish when you see that others need you and you still need to work despite the circumstances. Does it make it right if you have been wronged and your feeling hurt through this time? It feels like nobody can help you or wants to help you. These days I wish I was still seeing my counselor and ironically I want to become a counselor one day.

I am not sure what is in store for me. I am not sure whats going to happen in my life. However I pray that through my struggles that I would struggle well. In these moments of weakness, that I would rely on God to be my strength. I pray that I would continue believe that God has plans to prosper us and not to harm me and to give me a hope and a future through this time. I hope I can continue to be faithful to Him in this time.

"You have not forsaken your brothers these many days to this day, but have kept the charge of the commandment of the LORD your God." Joshua 22:3

Congrats 2011 Nba Champion Dallas Mavericks

2011-06-17T10:05:00.001-05:00

I love saying that Nba Champion Dallas Mavericks. Its been so long since this Dallas/Fort Worth area had a Champion. Its been awesome as a fan to bask and marinate in this great feeling for this team and nation. I definitely wanted to go out to the parade. I was lucky to have a few friends to attend with me. It was awesome and definitely scary experience. It was fun cheering with hundreds and thousands of Mavs fans. There were instances in our area where people were passing out from the heat. I don't know if people understand how hot it really gets when you are around so many people and the heat. I definitely was staying hydrated and safe throughout the whole time. The tricky thing is not having to go to the bathroom from drinking too much and either losing your sport or get arrested for going to the bathroom in public. Luckily I didn't have to do either one of those options.
I bet the Cuban, Dirk, and JET have been reminsicing about this whole process and whether or not they would ever become Champions. We were all so sure that it was going to work out in 2006. When the first parade was scheduled. This moment shows that losing at that time created this amazing moment for the organization and fans 5 years later. There were so many times that people wondered with the Finals collapse, Golden State and all these first round exists. Whether or not they missed their chance. People wondered whether trading for Jason Kidd, signing Shawn Marion to that deal, whether Dirk can be Batman, and can we rely on JET. Last year when we were eliminated in the first round, the only change occured with upgrading Tyson Chandler at Center. We all learned that all those changes, struggles, and challenges led to the journey of becoming Nba Champions. Overall I am really happy to have gone out to Dallas and celebrate with Mavs Nation. For some reason I do feel like a part of the process and sticking it with this guys. I am glad I did! Thank You Dallas Mavericks! I am proud of you guys!

Happiness Still Can't Come From The Mavs

2011-05-26T23:56:00.000-05:00

A little more than one year ago, I wrote a piece on the Mavs when they were on the verge of being eliminated by the Spurs in the first round. That was a tough loss because I really don't like the Spurs. Two funny things happened, one is that one of my students asks me, do you think the Mavs will be good this year? They didn't make changes, so I said they will be ok I guess, nothing special. He keeps reminding me to this day and I am so glad he was right. Its awesome that one year later the Mavs are in the Nba Finals. I remember the point that I made which was that happiness does not come from the Mavs, but from God. I still understand that today.

I am excited, I am happy, and I am definitely going to want the Mavs to beat the Heat and win their first ever Nba Championship. It would give me satisfaction to beat the team that beat us 5 years ago and to stop the big 3 from earning their 1st championship. At the same time, I will be ok if they don't do that. I am not trying to prepare myself for a loss here because I am expecting to win this series. If my team believes they can be the first to win 4 more games, then I am on board as well. I am saying that hope and happiness can't be built on whether your sports team wins or not.

I know this because last night the Mavericks beat the Thunder and made the trip to the Western Conference Finals. I was happy and excited and looking forward to the next series. However, I realize that problems and sin still exists in this world. Despite the fact that the Mavericks can temporarily bring happiness for a night. The next day, we have to live life and deal with problems with ourselves and in this world. The Mavs winning the Nba title is not going to cure all the problems and sin in Texas.

³ ^(A)Grace to you and peace from ^[a]God our Father and the Lord Jesus Christ, ⁴ who ^(B)gave Himself for our sins so that He might rescue us from ^(C)this present evil ^[b]age, according to the will of ^(D)our God and Father, ⁵ ^(E)to whom be the glory forevermore. Amen. Galatians 1:3-5

I need to constantly remind myself on how I need to continually rest and hope in Jesus Christ through these times. Jesus is eternal and he is the one that can rescue us from this evil and fallen world. It is so hard living in this world, even when things go your way. I hope that I don't lose focus of Jesus, even during this amazing Mavs playoff run. Remember, I love JC, that is also a Mavs fan. Lets Go Mavs! 4 more wins. Beat the Heat! Lets bring a championship to Dallas. I will be rooting for each second of each game.

There Is Always Hope!

2011-04-21T14:11:00.000-05:00

Sometimes life is hard to comprehend and deal with at times. Its crazy how your whole world can change in a short amount of time. When you work with students, live and work with sinful people. It is easy to see how dirty, filthy, and disgusting our world can be at times. Its so hard to see how sin entangles the world and people. You don't see them as beautiful anymore, you see them as what they are which is sinful. I bet you would think that I should go into another line of work. However, even it feels like there is no hope there is hope.

I realize the only reason that I can ever have hope is because of Jesus. The reason why things are going to change and people repent from their sin is only through God. The reason why we can always hope is because God is still the God of this world. He is still the one who loves us and knows whats best for us. He is all knowing, all powerful, all ominiscient, all just, all perfect, all righteous, and and thats a just a few ways to describe him. If you rely on people, they are going to let you down. Its not fair to rely on a person who is already fallen, they can't on their own carry anymore burdens. I am so glad that Jesus came down on this Earth and carried those burdens for us.

2 Corinthians 1:9-11: 9 Indeed, we felt we had received the sentence of death. But this happened that we might not rely on ourselves but on God, who raises the dead. 10 He has delivered us from such a deadly peril, and he will deliver us again. On him we have set our hope that he will continue to deliver us, 11 as you help us by your prayers. Then many will give thanks on our behalf for the gracious favor granted us in answer to the prayers of many.

I think it is normal to feel hopeless at times in this world because people are sinful and that we are all destined to death. However we don't have to feel that way. We can rely on God who if we believe and trust in Him can save us of our sins. He came down and did that and He is coming back again to rescue our broken world. Thats the only reason I can have hope because I have hope in God.

Learning To Be Teachable

2011-04-17T16:06:00.000-05:00

Its been a week since I taught at Junior High for DBSM. I have to say at first I thought it went well. I got a lot of compliments from people and it seems like everything was good. Its funny when you think everything was good, when you actually were not as good as you thought you were. I had time to process it, get some feedback, and think about it myself. I don’t like listening to myself talk because I don’t like the way that I sound. However I started getting used to it and so I got to listen to most of my talk and I realized that I have a lot to grow as a teacher. Usually I don’t like thinking this way because I will always criticize myself. I am starting to realize how much I need the criticism. Its intimidating talking up there when you get great teachers like Andy Vanderveer, Chris Wilson, and Jason Fanning speaking. I was realistic and knew that I would no way match up to them. I kind of knew that I was a downgrade compared to them. I knew I had to learn by going up there myself and find out whether I could sink or swim. I realized in some areas, I did well and in some areas I kind of sucked. I am glad I learned all this about myself because it taught me about kind of my topic on how I am not perfect. I do have weaknesses. I cannot rely on my strength to help me preserve, however I need to rely my strength on the Lord. 2 Corinthians 12:9 And he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you for power is perfected in weakness.”

I don’t want to be completely down on myself because I am proud of certain aspects on how things went. I learned so much about Jesus during my preparation. I definitely felt a lot more confident delivering the information. I really felt that God’s spirit help me from not being nervous or completey freezing up there as well. Even though it wasn’t perfect, I still like to think that the Spirit helped me from it becoming a huger disaster. It didn’t really go all that I planned, but I still don’t regret the experience. I believe this experience gave me stuff that I can build on. I believe it will also help me be even better next time around. I am grateful for DBSM for giving me opportunities to grow as a teacher. I am so lucky to have students who were supportive and encouraging me through the whole time. I was deeply encouraged by the support of the students. I am very blessed with a great encouraging and supporting ministry.

Teaching This Sunday!

2011-04-07T11:38:00.000-05:00

I can't believe that I am teaching the junior high students this Sunday. I am excited, nervous, and really looking forward to this opportunity. I never really thought of myself as a teacher and I look back at when it all started about 2 years ago. I remember talking to Andy Vanderveer about this time I taught my catholic family about the prodigal son. I talked to him about how exciting and cool it was teaching people about the bible. My cousin told me that she never heard the story like the way that I told it. It wasn't really anything I said, but what I got from the bible that really spoke to her. Anyways, Andy would you be interested in teaching a Splash Bash, which is small middle school youth event during the summer. I got the opportunity to teach 3 times throughout the summer. I really enjoyed it, I love havng fun and teachng students about God. I got similar opporunities this past year as well.

It is exciting seeing this teaching journey and how I get this opportunity this Sunday to speak for about 100 or so Junior High students. The good thing is that this isn't my first time teaching. I got to teach 5th and 6th graders earlier this year and that went ok. One of the best parts about teaching is just what you as the speaker take out of it. I believe that you as the speaker will be the most impacted from the text and teaching itself. I guess I bets get ready. Pray for me that God would speak through me and teach these students about how important it is to place our hope in Jesus.

Everybody Needs A Fan In Their Life

2011-03-06T17:25:00.000-06:00

Right after leader chill on Wednesday afternoon, the roommates and myself were talking about the importance of having a fan in your life. I never really thought about it like that. However, I am learning more and more about how much I need a fan in my life and how I need to be fans to other people as well. I know that ultimately we need to rely and delight ourselves in God. We should not be dependent on people's approval, but we need to be dependent on God's approval in our lives. It is a special feeling when people know that they have fans in their lives.

I mentioned a couple months ago about how awesome it is being a fan of a team. It is really thrilling and exciting. I never thought about how awesome and meaningful it is to be a fan of someone. I have some great friends in my life. There are so many reasons why I am fans of them. Some of them are very artistic, creative, smart, funny, unselfish, serving, loving, and so many ways to describe them. People are awesome and God can use them to do really awesome things. Its easy to be fans of those people. When I think about the fans in my lfie. I think about people who encourage me in my daily life. I see people who support me during the good and bad times.

The importance of being a fan is to support people during the good and rough times in life. Great example I can think of is when the Rangers made it to the World Series. The Rangers ended up losing in 5 games and people were disappointed. What was awesome and something I never saw was people still encouraging them even when they lost. I remember reading people's tweets about how they thanked the Rangers for the greatest season and how they were proud of them. It was an honor being a fellow Rangers fans who still supported and loved their team. One thing that I always want to tell my huddle group is that I support them. I try to go to as many of their games and I am proud of them no matter the outcome. I hope they do know that I am a fan of theirs. I don't what that means to them, but I hope they know that.

Be fan of someone. "Therefore encourage one another and build each other up, just as in fact you are doing"- 1 Thessalonians 5:11. God is on our side and its good to know others are as well.

The Karokee Legend Spreads to America

2011-02-24T20:39:00.000-06:00

There are many people who don't know that I am a Karokee legend in China. I went 4 years ago on a mission trip to China. We went to a karokee bar and I became amazing at karokee. My chinese friends just wanted more and more. Some think that I don't exist, but there are few witnesses of karokee.

This past Tuesday. My friend and greatest DJ Eddie Renz hosts Karokee at Bommer Jacks Denton on Tuesday nights. Eddie is amazing at what he does and so I and other DBSM leaders came to support Eddie. I was at first nervous about karokeeing in front of people because I thought I might disappoint. I have to say that I didn't disappoint at all. I am just as amazing and my legend keeps growing. I sang the song that made me a hit which is Backstreet Boys I want it that way. It tore roof down. I also witnessed some great performances as well, it was a good day for karokee singers everywhere. I have got great tips on how to be a karokee star.

How To Become a Karokee Star
1. Choose songs you know the lyrics: people think you can just sing any song and be ok b/c the lyrics show up. Not true some songs are faster, slower, and different than you experience. My advice be familiar with the song, make sure you know the lyrics and then sing that song.

2. Choose a song in your vocal range: don't choose a song that is too high or too low for you. Choose a song that best helps your voice.

3. Don't Doubt, Believe: I know its nerve racking but remember you know the song, trust the song, so don't doubt yourself and just become one with the song.

4. Know your Audience: Choose songs that your whole audience will like, so that they can enjoy and be a part of the experience as well. Do what you can to get your audience involved. They are going to like it more, if they feel more a part of the expeirence.

5. Entertain: I know that your vocals will be amazing, but really show some emotion and dance while you sing. Don't be afraid to look like an idiot. If you do it confidently, the crowd will believe as well.

Those are my tips to Karokeeing. Remember Tuesday Nights @7:45 go to Boomer Jacks and get your Karokee. You will meet Eddie Renz best one in the business today.

DBSM Takeover Sunday: Huge Success!

2011-02-15T14:12:00.000-06:00

I was not really planning on blogging after DBSM Sunday at the big church. However Joleen says to me that she looks forward to reading the blog after everything happened. I was kind of requested to write an article about the service after experiencing it. I have to say that it was a huge success. I knew that it was going to be amazing and it didn't fail to meet expectations and go a little higher. Andy Ricchuiti and the band was amazing. Its amazing that besides Ricchuiti the rest of the band is all high school students up there. Its amazing to see those student's hearts for God. I am proud of each one of those students who prepared, worked hard, and performed greatly in front of that crowd. I was really impressed with the student choir they were really good as well. It is encouraging seeing all those students singing, praising, and worshiping God and they all had smiles on their faces. Jason did a great job telling stories and welcoming people into the church. Chris gave an amazing sermon about the future of our youth. In that morning service, Chris really impressed all of the older folks. It seems like a lot of people enjoyed it and were encouraged by what God is doing in our ministry.

I believe what made Sunday amazing, it wasn't just the people on stage. It was the leaders, staff, and students who were all on board with what we were doing. Students greeting at the doors and it felt like a whole new energy to church that hasn't felt that way in a while. Its great that students got to sit with their families and worship with their families at the service as well.

Sunday was one of those days, you really didn't want to miss. Serving in this ministry for 3 years, its amazing how much the ministry has grown and what it is today. Its awesome when there are such special days where you can see that God is working in the lives of the members of our church. I feel sorry for the people that missed the service on Sunday because it was totally amazing. I am encouraged and glad to be a part of it all.

DBSM Sunday Is Tomorrow

2011-02-12T15:53:00.000-06:00

I usually don't blog about things that haven't happened yet. However, tomorrow I am really excited for a lot of reasons that the Denton Bible Student Ministries will be hosting the services for the 9, 11, and 6 o'clock services. You might be wondering what makes this is amazing? For the past 3 years, I have volunteered a lot of my time to this ministry and I get to experience what God is doing through our ministry. I get to experience students coming to know Christ, students decide to get baptized, students inviting their non-Christian friends to church, students serving the church, students going on mission trips, and so much more. This Sunday, the whole DBC family to going to see these things. They are going to meet some of these students who are following Christ. For the first time these students are going to get to meet their church. They get to meet elders, the people that tithe(the reason why we can have church), and so much more. The church will get to see our awesome band and just the great teaching of Chris Wilson.

I just can't contain the excitement and wait to blog another day about this. I really do believe God is going to make these 3 special services. The longest time, these people really don't know about these students and even some of us leaders. We meet in a building across street, it would be no reason for them to and I think they are going to be amazed at how God is working through our student ministry.

For any of you DBSM students, I would encourage you to come serve with us at 8:30 am and meet us at the chapel. Our church needs to meet you and they need to see what God is doing in our youth. I am very proud to be a part of this ministry and all the students I am blessed to have met.

List of Holidays Not Celebrated

2011-01-17T12:15:00.000-06:00

I love having holidays b/c of this I don't have school today. However I believe that the schools/universties/work places don't observe the holidays that need to be celebrated and get off for the day and paid time off as well. I am thankful for the holidays they have acknowledged, but here are some more that they have missed out on.

Inspirtation comes from You, Me, and Dupree:
Dupree: [during his job interview] I'm a people person, very personable. I absolutely insist on enjoying life. Not so task-oriented. Not a work horse. If you're looking for a Clydesdale I'm probably not your man. Like I don't live to work, it's more the other way around. I work to live. Incidentally, what's your policy on Columbus Day?

Interviewer: We work.

Dupree: Really? The guy discovered the new world. I'm afraid to even ask about Victory Over Japan Day.

2/2 Groundhog Day
2/12 Lincoln's Birthday
2/21 President's Day and Washington's Birthday
4/18 Tax Day
4/22 Earth Day
5/5 Cinco De Mayo
6/14 Flag Day
2nd Monday of August Victory over Japan Day *holiday in Rhode Island
9/11 Patriot Day
9/16 Constitution/Citzenship Day
10/10 Columbus Day
10/31 Halloween
11/11 Veteran's Day
12/7 Pearl Harbor Rememberance Day

Sorry to depress everyone, but there are holidays that we miss out on and the world should know.

My Top 5 Moments of 2010

2011-01-02T00:30:00.000-06:00

2010 was an amazing year. I can't remember a year that I had more fun this year. I am really sad to see this year pass. I love just stopping and thinking about the past year. When I think about it, it makes me smile about what God has done for me this year. Apart of me wishes that 2010 had more than 365 days in a year. There are some moments I cannot share just yet, but I believe 2010 is always going to be known as pivotal moment in my life. My Top 5 Favorite Moments of 2010.

5. Career Change. The very end of 2009, I decided to leave Fidelity Investments and pursue a career in Counseling. This career change was very difficult for me to give up financial stability and a secure position. I realize that this career wasn't for me. I decided to persue a career where I would get to interact and help people. I was blessed with the opportunity to coach soccer at Strickland Middle School. It was awesome getting to know and work with these students. At the end of the year I got accepted into UNT's Counseling Program.

4. Texas Rangers Win the American League Championship. I never thought that I would see the day the Texas Rangers went to the World Series. I have been a Rangers fan since 1994, when my dad would take my brother and me to the ballpark. After so many years when the Rangers were so awful. The past couple of years I started paying attention again. I never had so much fun at the ballpark. One of the best parts of the Rangers winning the AL Championship was hearing Josh Hamilton spread the word of Christ to the entire ballpark in Arlington.

3. The new friends that I have made this year. I love hanging out and meeting people. Its always a surprise the people God brings in my life. I have been fortunate this year to meet some amazing people at church, work, ministry, new roommates and more. Some of the people I have met are just amazing people of God. The best part about my new friendships is that they challenge me and make me want to be a better man of God. I am so amazed by the way God made them and is currently using them in their life. I am so lucky to have these people in my life. I thank God for them.

2. My ministry at Denton Bible Student Ministries. This year of ministry at DBSM has been so amazing. I am blessed with the greatest Huddle Groups. Its been so awesome getting to know my students more this year. Its awesome hearing their heart for God. My guys are fun, smart, and really awesome. I have been blessed to teach them about scripture, experiences, and other stuff. I love teaching the word of God especially to students. This year I got to go on a ski trip and teach a couples times as well. Only for junior high students that you can compare the role of Israel in comparison to Toy Story(Best sermon ever). One of the best things that happened this year was one of my students got saved. It was so encouraging hearing his stories and how he wanted to continue to grow in God.

1. The best moment this year has to be continuing to grow in my relationship with God. I have been a Christian for a little more than 7 years now. Each year I continue to learn more about God. I have my good moments and bad moments this year. God has taught me so much about how much I need him. How I need to rely on His strength and not really on my own power. John 3:30-"He Must Increase, I Must Decrease" Each year I got to have my continually growing relationship with God. Its got to be my best moments each year because there is nothing greater than God's character and role in my life.

2010 was amazing, alot of great things happens and some that I could not mention because my blog would be way too long. As much as I miss you 2010, I look foward to 2011 and beyond. Looking forward to making some more top moments 2011.

You Be Faithful, Let God Be Good!

2010-12-30T17:14:00.000-06:00

I hope everybody are having a great winter break and everybody had a great Christmas break. It was great Santa Claus gave me a present for the first time ever. He gave me my favorite candy and it tastes so much better from Santa Claus. I think Santa Claus and his elves make candy better than the company itself does.

My last blog post was about redemption stories. I love redemption stories. As a disciples of Jesus Christ, we all have our own redemption story. It might not be as dramatic as some stories we hear like Josh Hamilton. Romans 5:12-"Therefore, just as though one man sin entered into the world, and death through sin, and so death spread to all men, because all sinned". As human beings we have all sinned, which means that we have fallen from God. The good news is stated in 2 Corinthians 5:21-"He made Him who knew no sin to be sin on our behalf, so that we might become the righteousness of God". It shows how through Jesus, we can all have redemption.

As much as I love redemption stories because everybody at one point needs redemtpion. I really love stories about faithfulness. I love hearing stories about how married couples can remain faithful to each other for some many years. I really love hearing stories about men and women being faithful in their relationship to Christ in so many years. I feel like the people that are faithful, sometimes get overlooked. These men and women go through the same struggles and temptations, that everybody in the world go through. Its amazing how for so many years that they can turn away from sin and lean more towards God. We need these faithful people in our lives to encourage us and give us wisdom in this tough world. We need these faithful people in our churches, community, and in this world, so that they can be a salt to others as well. I believe its a true testament to God, when his people are faithful to him throughout everything. It shows how God is stronger and glorified. Thanks to all of you who are faithful and continue to be faithful to God.

Matthew 25:23: “His master replied, ‘Well done, good and faithful servant! You have been faithful with a few things; I will put you in charge of many things. Come and share your master’s happiness!’

Have a Happy New Year!

Redemption

2010-12-18T15:40:00.001-06:00

I love redemption stories. It makes me believe in people and that people have the ability to do the right thing. Its easy to fall and stumble in this world. It is really easy to engage in sin and continue falling from God. I love hearing stories about how people have fallen and how God gives people second chances for not only a shot at redemption. Also, so God can be glorified and his name can be known throughout the world.

When I think of redemption, I think these two stories of Michael Vick and Josh Hamilton. I think of two people who were probably the most talented athletes at their sports. Both of them almost threw it all away because of destructive decisions. Its terrible the things that they have done. Its amazing how God uses those situations and can still redeem men and use these men to make his name great. I am happy for both of their successes. Not necessarily because they are both famous and on top of their sports again. However, it shows how they turned away from their destructive decisions and end up giving hope to people that they can overcome obstacles, addiction, sin, etc in thier own lives. It makes me happy that Josh Hamilton is a Christian and gives glory to God in His life. I am glad that he uses his success to bring God glory. I am not sure whether Vick is a Christian or not, but it is encouraging to see someone go to school to talk to youth about the mistakes he has made. In hopes that these students don't make the same mistakes.

I believe as a Christian its important to believe in redemption. At one point in all of our lives, as it says in Romans 5:8 "In that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us". We all struggle with sin and fall at times in our lives. Despite our short comings, God loves us. Through God we can overcome these short comings and we can be redeemed. 2 Corinthians 5:17 "Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come: The old has gone, the new is here". Its awesome that despite anything God can change us into new people. Kind of like we see with Josh Hamilton and Michael Vick how they are new people. I thank God everyday for loving us. I believe God can change anyone's life despite the shortcomings they come through. Its makes me believe that people can change and be redeemed because God is that amazing.

This is a great song is called Overcome, not sure who its written by, but its performed by the Desperation band.

I Will Miss You Cliff Lee.........

2010-12-16T00:08:00.002-06:00

I told myself that I wouldn't get my emotions invested in Cliff Lee, but unfortunately I might have invested too much than I expected. I was amazed that we ended up with Cliff Lee at the middle of the season this year. I was so excited to have him pitch for Texas. Finally a legitmate ace to be head of the rotation. We knew he was going to be a free agent, but there was a good chance he would go to New York. We should get used to him just being a rental.

It was awesome having Cliff Lee be on your team. I have never felt like the Rangers ever had a pitcher that I feel could win every single game that he started. I got to go to one game that he pitched against the Oakland A's and it was awesome. He pitched quickly, he located pitches well, and he has such confidence about him. It was so exciting seeing him pitch. I know for a fact that the Rangers would not have made it to the World Series if it wasn't for him. It was awesome how he dominant he was in the ALCS. It was awesome seeing him just blank the Yankee hitters, who had no shot.

Hours before my birthday, it was saddening news to me hearing that he wasn't coming back to Texas. I really wanted to see him pitch as a Ranger again. I thought that we had a great shot to go back to the World Series with him. I realize something and I think it applies to fans as well. That we are not mad at Cliff Lee, The Rangers, or even the Phillies. I am just mad at the situation because now my team doesn't have the best pitcher. I don't know what this means for the Rangers in the future. I felt if we kept Lee, it would help us go back to the World Series. I know that we have a great office and managment team that knows the next best decision.

Thanks Cliff Lee for all you did for the Rangers. I wish you best of luck. If the Rangers face the Phillies in the World Series. Sorry Cliff, you are going down.

LEB Sports: Glad To Be Part of a Team Blog

2010-12-08T22:38:00.003-06:00

http://lebsports.wordpress.com/ this blog you can see my genius sports insights.

Beards Are Awesome.

2010-11-30T23:00:00.000-06:00

I have been able to grow facial hair probably since 7th grade. I haven't been able to have good facial hair probably till junior year of high school. Recently I started my first offical no shave November. I really wanted to see how good a beard I can grow in a month period of time. I have to say one of my best features is growing beards. I will show pictures of beards that I have had. Recently "No Shave" November beard, the only thing I shaved was my neck hair b/c it makes me itchy. I guess if you want you can vote on my best beards. I myself will be honest that I am not proud of all these looks, but you have to learn to fail to learn the absolute best look.

If you look at this look, it was what I called my David Crowder look, where I had a huge chin hair and a thick sideburns.

I know this one my hair is ridicolous, however this with my very thick beard.

This is my complete no facial hair beard because I was applying to camps and I couldn't have a beard.

This one is probably one of my better looks, where I sported the mustache and the chin hair.

This is probably my beard that is not quite complete yet.

This probably my favorite looks which is my really really thin beard, I have to say great craftsmanship.

This is my No-Shave November look and probably thickest beard in shortest amount of time in my career.

These are my many looks. I could not show my mustache look unfortunately. I have to say that I am glad that I tried all of them and more probably to come. I was quite discouraged hearing about some people not liking my favorite beard and current beard. You know what, it dosen't really matter what others think. You are the one that has to look at yourself everyday, so why not look the way you want to. Unless it is a girlfriend, wife, signifcant other, job, interview that wants you to look a certain way. In that case you should create the best facial hair that will benefit you. I hope these beards inspire you in some way.

5 Essentials For A Great Thanksgiving

2010-11-26T01:20:00.001-06:00

1. Eat until you can eat no longer
2. Make time to watch Dallas Cowboys Football
3. Spend quality time with friends and family
4. Help out around the kitchen don't make others do everything and let yourselves be served. (Mark 10:45)
5. Remember to be thankful for all the things God has done in your life. The good thing about this one is that we can do this every day. (1 Thess. 5:16-18)

Prep for Black Friday!

Canada Rules!

2010-11-17T10:49:00.000-06:00

I am not sure where this conception came from where all Americans made fun of Canada. Canada is probably the greatest place in the world. I myself was born in Canada and proud of it. I have family that lives in Canada and they are awesome. Great things that about Canada list.

1. Canada spells center: Centre
2. Canada titles the first Harry Potter book: Harry Potter and the Philosophers Stone
3. Canada has brought us great actors such as Robin from How I Met Your Mother, Jim Carrey, Jack Bauer, Kate from Lost, and so much more.
4. Canadians have contributed to music like artists like Celine Dion, Avril Lavigne, and Nickelback(I am not saying they are all positive).
5. Toronto and Vancouver is known as places where movies are filmed at.
6. Canada does not have a lot of pollution.
7. Canada has Tim Hortons which is pretty great.
8. Canada you get to wear scarves and hoodies almost for half a year, which I have to say is quite stylish.
9. Canada invented Canadian Bacon which is a far healthier and still delicious option of meat.
10. Lastly I Was Born In Canada which make Canada pretty awesome.

I hope you are convinced on how great Canada. I am not hating on America, I love America. One day I hope to have both Canada and U.S. Citizenship to have the best of both worlds. If there is one thing to take away from this blog its that Canada Rules!

Don't Believe Skeptics, Keep Cheering For Your Team!

2010-11-03T11:35:00.000-05:00

Monday night was a really sad night for me because it was the day the Rangers lost the World Series. It was tough because they lost in Texas, so I watched the other team celebrate on our own field. This happened too many times to Texas teams. Each time you watch it makes it even harder and harder to bear. It just sucks, there is no other way to put it. Last time it happened was when the Miami Heat beat Dallas Mavericks in Game 6 at the AAC. Then in 2000 when the New Jersey Devils defeated the Dallas Stars at the AAC. It is rough and tough watching your team lose, when they came so close to winning it. One of my friends said right before Game 1 started. She says, "You root so hard for these Texas teams and they disappoint you in the end". People saying being a fan of the Cowboys, Rangers, Stars, Mavs just end in heartbreak. Lately that seems true.

From these statements you must feel that being a fan of these teams suck so much. Thats when you are wrong because being a fan is one of the greatest things ever. When you get to follow a team closely for a year or maybe even a couple years. You get to learn to like these players because of their unique abilities. You get to see how they interact with one another. This year of Rangers baseball was the best year of going to the ballpark. Its not just because they won and made it to the World Series. Its because you saw something special. You saw the best pitching ever to be seen as a Rangers fan. You saw great hitting, which is nothing unusual. You got to see how they enjoyed playing with one another and that made it exciting to want to root for them and want them to succeed. It was fun as fans to get to do the deer and antlers. It felt like you were apart of the experience a well as a fan. As a fan you knew that the Rangers played hard not just for each other, but for us as the fans as well.

It was amazing being at the ballpark and hearing and feeling the excitement of what happened. It was amazing finding out that Ryan/Greenburg won the auction. It was amazing waiting 11 years for Chuck Morgan to announce AL West Champion Texas Rangers. It was amazing seeing the Rangers advance for the first time. It was amazing seeing A-Rod strike out. It was amazing seeing the American League Champion flag go up in the stadium. It was amazing waiting 16 years to hear American League Champion Texas Rangers. It was amazing hearing Josh Hamilton talk about Jesus on national television. It was amazing seeing the first pitch of the World Series. It was amazing walking up to the stadium and a sign that said welcome 2010 World Series. I went to 16 games this season (including the ALDS and World Series) and I saw 9 wins and 6 losses. It was a lot of fun being able to experience this run by the Rangers. One of my friends Andrew says to me after the loss, he said he would like to shake my hand and say good season.

I am so proud of the Texas Rangers for all their accomplishments and the ride they took us on this year. It was awesome being able to talk to people about how awesome the Texas Rangers are. It was awesome seeing fans start to believe again and hear the crowds erupting. I just want to say this one thing in closing. Don't listen to skeptics when they say that Texas teams will break your heart. One year they won't and it will feel great sticking with them all these years.

I Forgot About The Greatness Of Crowder!

2010-10-24T21:56:00.001-05:00

Many of you know that I moved into the Hanger. I have great roommates. I believe now more than ever that the reason God specifically put Andy Ricchuiti in my life was to re-introduce me to the greatness of the David Crowder Band. When I first became a Christian I loved the David Crowder Band and I always caught their concert when they were in town. Anyways lately I have lost my famous Crowder roots, I even had a beard like him. I still kept up with their new cds, but I didn't keep up as much with them on the internet that I should have.

I watched David Crowder's new music video SMS(shine) video which is amazing. On a Friday afternoon we spent time watching all these Crowder videos. I forgot how funny and brillant this guy is. I love hearing the squirrell story and how they based a whole music video on it. I also viewed some great videos on how he created a robot drummer called steve 3-po, twitter will kill you, guitar hero guitar playing music, and the David Crowder Band vs. the squirrels.

I wanted to use this blog to thank Andy Ricchuiti for showing me the brillance of Crowder. Thank you to the David Crowder Band for being as amazing as they are.

David Crowder Squirrel Story
David Crowder Band vs. The Squirrels
David Crowder Band Guitar Hero
David Crowder Message: Twitter Will Kill You
David Crowder Band: Steve 3-p0

Its Time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-10-14T14:00:00.000-05:00

It is so awesome seeing the Texas Rangers advance to the ALCS. I became a Rangers fan in 1994 and I was really excited the first time they made the playoffs in 1996. I believe they had a good team back then, but the Yankees just were a little bit better. I was proud of those guys because they fought them every step of the way, but unfortunately they did as well and beat us in that series 3-1. Then we made it in 98 and 99 and got swept, which really sucked. There was a time when I kind of stopped following the Rangers b/c things went bad and we got A-Rod. These past couple of years I started following them again. I had a feeling that Young, Kinsler, Hamilton can help push us into those teams in the late 90's to make the playoffs.

It was exciting that the Rangers made the playoffs in 11 years. Its been really great and something I have been waiting for a long time to see them advance a round. Its great to see all these fans come back and start liking baseball again. Its exciting to hear more people talk about the Rangers than the Cowboys and its football season. I am really proud of my Rangers for the long journey and the determination to make it this fall. I am planning on buying World Series tickets because I want to be there and I believe they can beat the Yankees this time around. Everyone thinks we can't, but they said we were suppose to lose to Tampa as well. In sports anything can happen. This has been really sweet and awesome to have waited this long and to see the Rangers have success. Totally worth it and I am glad I never stopped cheering and rooting for them.

Funny thing is that just like its more sweet for the fans that have been through all these crappy years. Its also awesome the fact that when we stay with Jesus and see the glorious and wonderful things he does in our life as well.

Btw if you have never been to a playoff game you need to because it is amazing. You will never have a better experience at the ballpark. Lets Go Rangers, give me another thing to blog about.

A New Home!

2010-10-01T22:09:00.000-05:00

I just wanted to thank people for all the positive feedback on the last blog. I am glad people got something out of my blog and that it encouraged people in their relationships with the Lord as well. God has been doing some great things in my life lately. I have been named an intern with Denton Bible Student Ministries. I am really excited about this opportunity. Never ever did I ever think that I would be working and learning more about ministry. I really believe God put this on my heart and I am looking forward to learning more about youth ministry. I am excited to see the direction God is pushing me towards in a career.

I am really excited about being an intern, serving my church, and meeting new students. I am looking forward to living with two new people, knowing them better, and growing in my relationship with Christ. It is kind of a bittersweet feeling because I am leaving my old house and roommates. I lived with a total of 18 roommates. It was a great learning experience living with all those people. I have met and lived with some many different people. I have encountered all sorts of drama as well. For the past 2 and half years that place was my home. That is the longest house I have ever lived at besides living in my parents house. It was kind of weird, when it happened that I moved out of the house. Eventhough it wasn't perfect situation or even ideal. I am going to miss it in some ways and hope to continue to be friends with those guys as well.

L8R,
Alan

Always Stay Young!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-09-22T12:56:00.000-05:00

I have probably lived more than a quarter of my life. Right now in my season of life I don't really feel old or worn down. I feel like I have more energy than ever. It could be the creatine, part-time job, and volunteering at a youth ministry talking. Lately I feel the importance of living each day to its fullest. It is great experiencing how much fun life can be. This past week I have played in the mud two times. One of my friends talked about how "I am not in college anymore, I can't just do that". "I am like why not". Who says that we can't do these things? You think there would be an age cut off to do those sort of things. In reality there never really is an age cut off to doing awesome and fun things like playing in the mud, watching Toy Story movies, and so much more.

A verse that comes to my mind is 1 Peter 2:2- "like newborn babies, long for the pure milk of the word, so that by it you may grow in respect to salvation". I love this verse because it reminds me of how when we first become Christians, it is really exciting because we strive to know God more each and every day. There is excitement in our relationships with God and we just want everybody in the world to feel this excitement as well. I have been blessed with meeting some very young-hearted people at DBSM, KAA, UNT, and my old church I used to attend. I believe its important that we don't lose that feeling of excitement about our relationship with the Lord.

I know some of you that read this may be saying that when you were young. You may have done some sinful things that you end up regretting. I am not encouraging to engage in rowdy, rambuncous behavior that is not glorifying to God. Stay young, just because we get older dosen't mean that we are dying. It means each and every day we get to live more like Christ.

Stay young and Love God Everyday!

Lately I Love Doing Ministry!

2010-09-16T23:49:00.000-05:00

I never realized lately how much I loved doing ministry until the past two years. I didn't realize how I would be happily able to give up things. I have to use this example, eventhough I don't want to seem like I am a super Christian and give off that holier than though vibe. I don't know if people understand how big a step it is for me to turn down things like Rangers tickets. I want to give you the background of the story.

I remember the first time I was at the Rangers ballpark. It was a really special experience to me. I remember going in 1994 and watching a Rangers game and falling in love with it. I kept following baseball, I started becoming a huge Rangers fan. I would love going to Rangers games, I would get autographs and all sorts of stuff. I got to see them go to the playoffs and I would cry when they lost. I am a pretty big fan. I enjoy watching them the past couple of seasons. They seem like a team that enjoys playing together. I love the fact that Josh Hamilton is a Christian and loves the Lord. I have to say this is the best season of Rangers baseball I have seen, I believe that we can go far this year.

I was presented with two opportunities lately, where I actually declined going to see the Rangers play. It was cool, yesterday one of my student's parents offered me tickets to go and I happily declined because I had Elev8 that night. Today, I had an opportunity to buy tickets to home game 1 of the playoff game. I decided not to because there was a possility that they could play on a Wednesday night an Elev8 night. I really want to go see a playoff game and it might be the only shot to go, but I declined to buy those tickets when the moment presented itself. I am sure its possible that they might be ok with me going b/c it is a rare occasion. However, I felt like I couldn't go on the game night that day b/c I want to be at Elev8. I want to hang out with my students and get to know them better throughout this time. Honestly I would rather miss a game (even a once in a lifetime opportunity) to do ministry and spend time with my students.

I want to thank Jesus for all that He is doing in my life and giving me a fire to get to know him more throughout this time. I pray that I would always have these desires to want to know Jesus better.

Hanging Out with the Right Crowd!

2010-09-14T22:43:00.000-05:00

Lately I have to say that things have been going well for me. I feel like I am yearning and seeking God more and more in my life. My relationship with God has been amazing because of these things. I am thankful that God has called me and uses me however he wants to use me. Lately I have to say the reason I have been doing well is because I feel I have been hanging out with some good people. Lately I have been so encouraged by meeting with people who love Jesus and talk about thier walk with them. They encourage me to do the same as well. I feel great about all the positivity that has come from hanging out with these people. I believe it is important to hang out with Godly people who challenge and encourage you in your with Christ. Lately I have understood how important the church is in my life. When I think about other Christians, I notice that they always meet with people about their relationship as well. For some reason I don't believe I am alone in these feelings. I have stumbled on to this verse about hanging out with unbelievers.
¹⁴Do not be yoked together with unbelievers. For what do righteousness and wickedness have in common? Or what fellowship can light have with darkness? ¹⁵What harmony is there between Christ and Belial^[a]? What does a believer have in common with an unbeliever?
I don't want you guys to get my message wrong and I say its wrong to hang out with unbelievers. I think it is very important to have relationships with unbelievers. Jesus and Paul led by example by ministering and hangout with sinners. I believe that we can compromise when it talks in the verse about being yoked together with unbelievers. I believe it is saying by being joined in values, principles, and etc. I believe it can be dangerous to be joined together with people that don't know Christ. I believe that its important to become friends and hangout with unbelievers. We need to be united and yoked together with believers and the church because through that we can be encouraged and grow in our relationship with Christ. I guess the overall message is hang out with people who love Jesus. I love talking to all people whether they are believers or unbelievers. I know that I need the church, so that I can continually be sharpened and encouraged to love Jesus more everyday.

Small Fish In A Big Pond

2010-08-26T13:32:00.000-05:00

Yesterday was exciting because it was the first Elev8 of the year. This year the first Elev8 felt like opening day at Rangers Stadium, the opening kickoff of the Superbowl, watching the Dark Knight for the first time, and so much more exciting things. Its always awesome starting a new school year with the students. Its unfortunate because the students have to go to school however Elev8 can be a place where they have fun and get to know Jesus more which is sweet. I believe the night went well. Great random topic ping pong, great talk by Wilson, and great worship by Ricchuiti(I couldn't even feel my ears it being so loud).

For the past two years I was a junior high huddle group leader. I loved it. It was a lot of fun. Last year was probably the most fun I had doing ministry. There are so many great memories playing ultimate cow tounge(which sounds gross, but it might be the greatest game ever), Information Overload, Fruit of the Spirit Song, eating all Chick-Fil-A sandwhiches to where they could not sell anymore for the rest of the day, freezing my beard on the ski trip, teaching Splash Bashes, Andy Vanderveer, and so much more. I loved junior high so much, it is such a fun age to be a part of the student's lives.

I have to say yesterday was werid because I wanted to be there. A part of me misses those glory days. Now I have moved up to high school and its different. There are more students and now I am not known as well. It kind of feels like going back to high school and being that freshman in an uncomfortable new setting. Its werid i am sure my boys don't feel that way because of the school they attend. At Calvary you are already mixed in with the high school to where its not that big of a jump like other schools might be.

Bottom line is this I am going to miss serving in the Junior High and getting to know those students for the time being. I will always remember and carry those memories as a special place in my heart. Ultimately, the best part about that experience was getting to know, meet, and hang out with my students in that group. Each of them are so special. I really love those guys and would do almost anything for them. When I think about it, I really want to continue to build on our relationships and share Jesus with them. I hopefully want to see them become leaders of their school and spread Jesus around. I want to be there for them throughout this time in their lives. Hopefully, we can create new memories that are just as great as junior high. Its ok to be a small fish in a big pond because I get to hang out, serve, and share Jesus with some great people and I can dig that.

http://www.dbcstudents.org/

I Miss The Xanga Glory Days!

2010-08-09T16:45:00.000-05:00

I was going to write this one blog entry, but that one will have to wait another day. I used to be a more successful blogger. Back in the college days, there was this blog that was amazing it was called xanga.com. It was a great blog where you can comment on each other's blog postings and give e-props and everything. I think e-props were pretty hard to get. Today I was looking through my old xanga entries and some of them were quite brillant I have to say. I wrote about what God was doing in my life. My thoughts on life and just people in general. One of the best contributions I think I made was figuring out people's celebrity husbands and wives. It was amazing, I got to know my friends and use their characteristics to let them know who their husband/wife would be. A lot of my friends heard about my services, so they decided to take me up on that. I think since I have hooked them up with their celebrity/husband and wives, their lives have been better ever since. I hope I can recreate the magic on this blog like the xanga. One of my favorite memories was this poem my friend Faith and Firmin made about me.

Alan Dog, Alan Dog,

Tall and clean amid the smog.
Doggy Alan, Doggy Alan,
More funny than even Jimmy Fallon.
Sivakumaran, Sivakumaran,
When it comes to jesters, you sure are one.
Canadian Yenta, Canadian Yenta,
We're so glad that heaven sent ya.
Friend of people, friend of people,
Taller than a tall, brown steeple.
Smilling toofers, smiling toofers,
More valuable than new subwoofers.
Soon to be braceless, soon to be braceless,
You're so unique; you're never faceless.

-A Poem by Faith Hampton

(Jimmy Fallon rhyme contributed by Jennifer Firmin)

Happy Monday,
Alan

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2010-08-06T12:46:00.000-05:00

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Vacation Is A Good Thing

2010-07-22T13:20:00.000-05:00

Last week, I went out to Toronto to visit my family. It was good and fun. The trip went short because of the 25th wedding anniversary and the bbq, then it was off on the plane. I got to watch two movies on the planes. I saw the movie Old Dogs and that movie was not good or funny. On the way back I saw the movie the Last Song and it was my first Nicholas Sparks movie I saw, which was ok. I was not the biggest fan of the story, some things made no sense. There was this part in the movie where they were arguing and then the dude kisses her and then everything is all better. Makes no sense, that doesn't happen in real life or I just haven't tried it yet. It had some good teaching lessons. I found out that Nicholas Sparks is a Christian and so that was cool to learn about.

I also went to Matt's wedding and it was amazing. It was such a great honor and privilege to be a part of the wedding. Its amazing what God has done in both of their lives. Usually I get bitter at weddings, but not this one because it was one of my best friends and I was happy for him and his wife. I learned some good things throughout that time as well. I am not a good blogger, but maybe I will get better. Hopefully I will get my new computer soon!

Far Far Away Far Away Away

2010-06-27T09:57:00.000-05:00

I can't believe that I stumbled upon this song, so much later than it was released. I love Lecrae's music. He has such an amazing ability to share the gospel through Rap/Hip Hop music. I really love this new song that he wrote about the devastation in Haiti. I really love this song because I know that it is specifically wrote for that country. I believe that all of us can experience or go through feelings when God is contstantly far away. I love this song because it explains how in our flesh we can believe how God is not there and how could He allow such a thing to happen. It is a constant struggle b/w flesh and spirit. Eventually he speaks about how Christ is there and He is with us. I believe the song ultimately is encouraging because it gives us hope when we rest and trust in God. Here are the lyrics below.

Far Far Away (You feel) Far Away. (You Seem) Far Away.. So So (x2)

Hopeless!

I can spell it

I can smell it in the air

Lotta people wonder if you still care

And are you still there

Cuz I dun lost it all

I keep calling your name

But do you hear my call

And are you still involved

Or am I left alone

I wander the streets

Cuz I no longer have a home

My brothers all GONE

My sisters all GONE

My families and my friends aint gonna be here in the Mornin

Ya see me hear mourning

They say you feel my pain

They say you went through it

Say to die is to gain

But I aint gain nothing

I lost everybody

Now Im losing my mind

And my faith is all Im counting

Im still holding on

Thats why Im still pray

Feelin empty inside

I cant make it through today

I dont know what else to do

I dont know what else to say

Im talking to ya now

But I promise you feel so far

Far Far Away (You feel) Far Away. (You Seem) Far Away.. So So (X4)

Dear hope: Been waitin on ya for a while now

Been cut so deep that I aint sure if I can smile now

Look at this devastation

Look at the pain and sorrow

Somebody fed me lies and promised me a bright tomorrow

I know the God I follow

Is bigger than disaster

Big enough to handle

Any evil that harasses us

But I feel like he passed us

Pain overtook us

Buildings tumble over head

As the ground shook us

God have you forsook us

Lord you still with me

I know you save souls

I trust you to forgive me

Relief can you hear me

Hey Rest can you get me

Hey Peace can you see me

Hey love can you heal me

I dont know what to do

I aint looking for answers

I just need you to hold my hand

Through this cancer

Tell me you never left

Even in the midst of death

Breathe on me I'll do anything to feel your Breath

Far Far Away (You feel) Far Away. (You Seem) Far Away.. So So (X4)

(PSALMS 62:5-8)

5. For God alone, O my soul, wait in silence,

for my hope is from him.

6. He only is my rock and my salvation,

my fortress; I shall not be shaken.

7. On God rests my salvation and my glory;

my mighty rock, my refuge is God.

8. Trust in him at all times, O people; pour out your heart before him;

God is a refuge for us.

(Far far away.) Hes not (Far Away) No hes not (Far Away) Our Gods not Even though he seems

http://www.theresurgence.com/lecrae-music-video-far-away and here is a place you can view the video. I would also recommend purchasing the song on i-tunes b/c the proceeds go to help the haiti church.

Good Weekend Away From Denton

2010-06-20T11:50:00.000-05:00

This weekend, I decided to take the opportunity to visit my hometown G-town. First I visited my old work Fidelity Investments. It was cool being back as a visitor and not employee. The bad thing about visiting is that you want to talk to your friends, but they are always on the phone and they can't really talk. Its cool that most people have been promoted. It makes me happy because I know that some of my friends were not happy with their current positions. It is good to see friends happy and moving up in their careers. When I hear about friends moving up in their careers. I start thinking about the next steps that I need to be taking for my new career.

After I visited work, I decided to watch USA play Slovenia with one of my good friends David and his girlfriend Denise. My friends Andrew and Evan joined us later that evening. It was great, we cooked steaks, salmon, and zuccini. We had a lot of fun reconnecting and I am glad to have this summer to get back in contact wtih them.

Yesterday I spent most of my time with my family. I went to the gym with my dad and then I went to BJ's with my friend Jason. BJ's is amazing, its kind of pricy, but it is worth it. I got to see Toy Story 3 with my mom and my cousin. I was going to watch it with friends in Denton, but I decided to watch it with my mom. Mainly I wanted to watch it with her because when I was young my mom took me to watch the first 2 movies. I really loved the movies and I wanted to watch it with my mom because I thought it was a thing that we did together. The movie was great, but at the end it was sad that its the last Toy Story ever. The movie has so many meanings b/w the bond of the Toys, bond to their owner Andy, and the joy the toys experienced when being played with Andy. It is amazing Andy's imagination and how he took these toys into a completely new world (I feel I was like him, but not as dedicated). I definitely recommend watching the third movie.

Later that night I have been preparing my talk for Splash Bash this Wednesday, I am nervous, but I feel God is helping me prepare and speak His truth to these students. I am speaking on Romans 4 and 5 this Wednesday night. Today is father's day, a great day to show apprecation to my father(who has done so much) and God(the one who loves me abundantly and unconditionally).

Watching TV=Boring

2010-06-10T18:15:00.000-05:00

Starting this week, I have been working at CIS Summer Camp and I love it. Working with students in a summer camp environment is a lot of fun. Mainly you get to have fun and hang out with the students and that is great. It is completely different than working a program in the after school program which is actually after school.

Something that was amazing and really cool today. Usually during our normal after school program, we have a saturday program for the students. We have a certain number of students who are consistent that end up coming. Anyways, one of the students asks us today, "Are we having program on Saturday?". I told him, "no I don't think we are having a program this Saturday". He goes "come on we have to have program". I ask him, "why is that you don't want to hang out at home". He tells us that it is boring and that he would end up just watching tv and its boring. I think its amazing that this boy decides to be active and participate in a extracurriclear activity than stay at home and watch tv. I encouraged him that its a really good thing not to be a couch potato and watch tv all the time.

This boy's comment had me thinking about how refreshing and great it is that youth are deciding to go out and do things, instead of staying on the couch and watching tv. It shows that our program is affecting people, whether we know it or not. I feel like in today's age we are encouraged to watch tv and be lazy. I have definitely fallen on those days. Instead of watching tv, I needed to be cleaning, organizing, applying for jobs, getting to know Jesus more, building upon my relationship with God, reading, and so much more. I don't think its wrong to relax and watching tv or even hanging out with people in watching tv(b/c at least you are doing it with somebody, unless you are both just being lazy). So lets follow upon some great advice to not watch tv and to do some lasting and memorable experiences in our life.

Lost My Wallet

2010-06-06T14:44:00.000-05:00

I realize that I lost my wallet. Thursday morning before going into training, I thought that I was going to get a haircut afterwards. I realized I had no idea where my wallet was. I didn't worry about it at first b/c I had to get to work. Then I could not find it at all. This really sucks because I had gift cards in there and some sweet discount deals. The only bright part about losing my wallet was that I got to take a new picture. My picture on my drivers licence was not the best. My new one I took the other day is a little bit better. My hair is kind of all over the place. I remember when you were 16 and you had to renew your license every year. Now I have to keep this picture for 5 years, unless I go and buy a new license to get a new picture. I would say that is quite pricy, so I probably won't do that. I hope eventually my wallet winds up in the police department, so that I could at least have my blockbuster card back. Luckily nobody made any charges on my debit card or credit card.

Right now, I do not have a wallet and I have a pouch that I keep money and temporary debit card in. I do want to buy a new wallet. I do not want to buy just any wallet because this wallet is going to be lasting for about 5 years. I think its important to realize that there is no rush in some things, it is more important to buy things of quality to last a longer time.

Undefeated in Coaching Career

2010-05-31T10:07:00.000-05:00

I had done some little coaching while I was working at Kids Across America. I found out about an opportunity to coach soccer and I ended up getting the job. I was lucky because I got to work with another coach who has college soccer skills to help me. I was a bit nervous about this tournament that was coming up. It was amazing my team won both games in the tournament. I have never been in a position where I was on the sidelines coaching, but it was a great and fun experience. It was so great getting the opportunity to coach these kids and then get to see them play and succeed. A couple things that I have taught them was to hustle, work together, and to be positive. They did those things and it was amazing that they won. I really hope this builds their self confidence. I have to say that this was one of the coolest things that I got to participate. I know that I made the right decision by quiting my real job and to work with students. I am hoping for more opportunities in the future to do that.

If Today Was Your Last Day

2010-05-28T13:02:00.000-05:00

I am not a big fan of Nickelback at all. I really do like one of there songs and I did download it on my ipod because I like what the song has to say. Here are the lyrics:

My best friend gave me the best advice

He said each day's a gift and not a given right
Leave no stone unturned, leave your fears behind
And try to take the path less traveled by
That first step you take is the longest stride

If today was your last day and tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last
Leave old pictures in the past?
Donate every dime you had, if today was your last day?
What if, what if, if today was your last day?

Against the grain should be a way of life
What's worth the price is always worth the fight
Every second counts 'cause there's no second try
So live like you're never living twice
Don't take the free ride in your own life

If today was your last day and tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past?
Donate every dime you had?

And would you call those friends you never see?
Reminisce old memories?
Would you forgive your enemies?
And would you find that one you're dreaming of?
Swear up and down to God above
That you'd finally fall in love if today was your last day?

If today was your last day?
Would you make your mark by mending a broken heart?
You know it's never too late to shoot for the stars
Regardless of who you are

So do whatever it takes
'Cause you can't rewind a moment in this life
Let nothing stand in your way
'Cause the hands of time are never on your side

If today was your last day and tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past?
Donate every dime you had?

And would you call those friends you never see?
Reminisce old memories?
Would you forgive your enemies?
And would you find that one you're dreaming of
Swear up and down to God above
That you'd finally fall in love if today was your last day?

I really like this song. I like how the beginning goes where he says each day is a gift and not a given right. This song reminds me of how precious life is and what God has given to me. It is a blessing to be alive and I didn't do anything to deserve that right to be alive. In some ways, I feel that we should be living our lives like it is our last. We are not guaranteed anything in this life. I have a feeling I know what God wants me to do with my life. In all reality I have no idea what his plan is for me and what He has in store of my life. This song is a strong reality of how I should be doing some of the things that the songs asks of us. We should be doing these things not for our own contentment of our lives, but for God's glory. Ultimately every day and my last day should be all for the glory of God. We should be living each moment of our lives for not ourselves, but that hopefully God can use us for His glory alone.

"Whether, then, you eat or drink or whatever you do, do all to the glory of God" 1 Corinthians 10:31

All power and glory to God. Amen!

LOST Is Done, But That Is Not What I Will Miss.

2010-05-26T11:10:00.000-05:00

I have to say that I love watching that show LOST. I jumped in on season 2 and caught up by watching season 1 in a week. I really loved the show and I thought it was like a show that I have never seen before. There were so many questions and I really liked how they focused so much on character development. It is exciting to see character's lives before and after the crash. I think it is interesting that the show is called LOST and people think it is called that because people are on an island where no one knows where they are. Once you get to know these characters, you find out that they are LOST individuals with so many flaws, they are broken, and lack of purpose in their life. In a way the island helps bring them thier purpose and gives them life.

There were some season's finales that I have watched of shows that I enjoyed. Some that come to mind is Friends, Seinfeld, and thats all that I can think of. Seinfeld's season finale was terrible. Friends one was ok. I can say that I never saw a series finale that was so amazing and good, I thought LOST could be that. When I watched the finale, I didn't think it was amazing. I thought it was ok and good, but I didn't think it was anything really special. I think there were some really good things, but I also think there needed to be some work as well.

I have to say eventhough the finale was not the best. I have to say that we threw one of the greatest LOST Finale parties ever. It was great a bunch of friends and family gathered together, we cooked dinner, we prayed, and we all watched LOST together silently(which I really like). The show kept getting closer and closer to the end. People were getting more silent and serious in the room. Once the finale was finished, it was all silent. It was kind of like a feeling of shock that the whole series was over. I am going to miss watching that show, but I can always keep watching it b/c I own the series. I am going to miss watching it with my friends and hanging out and doing that. We usually watched it on Wednesday night and tonight I have nothing to do. It kind of makes me sad. LOST was great, but the community and the friendships are even better. I am hoping that it won't be the end of that, eventhough LOST is literally at an end.

Don't Hesitate, Just Blog, and Its Never Too Late To Celebrate Easter!!!!!!!!!!

2010-05-17T21:33:00.000-05:00

I learned this lesson the hard way. It was around April 6th, that I got this brillant idea for a blog. I was going to write about how I got my first and only Easter present from one of my friend Sara's mom. It was a big deal for me because my parents don't celebrate easter and it was the first easter basket that I have gotten. I wanted to take pictures of it and then blog about it. Once I took the pictures, I forgot what I was going to blog about. I learned a lesson about how when you have brillant thought, don't let it go to waste, but to blog your thoughts immediately. I will post the pictures right now.

You must be wondering why I am taking pictures of easter baskets that I got 7 years ago and why I still keep those baskets in tact. Well, the reason why is because it was a real special time in my life. This marks my first easter egg basket ever and I don't think I have ever gotten an easter basket till then. It was funny my friend Sara talked about how I got more candy than her and her brother got. I guess the better question is that why would I not keep these things. It commemorates a great day in my life. When I first became a Christian and getting to celebrate Easter because it was the day Christ conquered death and rose to heaven, so that we can spend an eternity with God. I don't know if this is what I wanted to write. I guess, the lesson is that you don't throw or eat things that symbolize great times in life. Yeah thats what I meant. Maybe next year when I get nostalgic about the aniversary I became a Christian, I will remember my original blog.

Peace and Love,

Alan

Love My Mavericks No Matter What Happens

2010-04-25T14:29:00.000-05:00

This past week, I have been doing a lot of trash talking about how the Mavs were going to dominate the Spurs. I have been talking about with my friend Lisa(who is a Spurs fan), posting Go Mavs on my facebook status, and on twitter as well. The series is not a cakewalk, as much as I wished it was. I have to give credit where credit is due, the Spurs have a good team and they definitely could win this series. I would definitely be dissappointed and sad if the Mavs lost this series. I was thinking about it after Friday night and their game 3 loss. I was thinking about just how mad and upset I was because I really believed that they would lose the series and it made me upset.

When I was thinking about my feelings about the Mavs. I was thinking about what ultimately is really important in our life. It seems like it takes losing and being unhappy to think about it. I think about the time and emotional investment when watching these games. I started thinking about ultimately how important is it whether or not the Mavs win or not. Really in the grand scheme of things, it is not really that important. I still think about how happy it was when they do well and some of the great moments like when the Mavs reached the Finals in 06, Dirk won the MVP award, Mavs ended up beating San Antonio in that pivotal game 7 in 06, and more. There were some bad moments like losing to Golden State in the first round being the number one seed, losing 4 straight games to lose the Nba finals in 06, and much more. When I think about the good and bad moments of being a fan, they are only temporary.

Regardless of whether the Mavs win or lose this series. My happiness is not dependent on them because I have Jesus Christ in my life. John 15:11- "These things I have spoken to you, so that My joy may be in you, and that your joy may be full". I am lucky to have Christ in my life who died on the cross for my sins. So because of Jesus I can have everlasting life in God. When I think about what Jesus and what He has done in my life. I think about the amazing things that he has done in my life and it brings me happiness. I know this happiness is everlasting.

I don't want anyone to be mistaken. I will always cheer and love the Mavs. I believe they can still win this series and I hope for an NBA championship. People may say I am crazy, but I love this part of myself to cheer for someone no matter what the circumstances. I always will love the Mavs no matter what they do. I have Jesus who provides unlimit happiness for what He has done in my life.

Go Mavs!

LOST: It Just Can't Be Explained

2010-04-19T10:43:00.000-05:00

I am a fan of talking to people, but I don't like answering questions that cannot be explained. I was talking to one of my friends about LOST. One of my roommates asks questions about the show and asks us to explain it. I realize more and more as the show goes on that the show just can't be explained at all. I jumped in on season 2, it was not sad bad because I watched season 1 and so I was practically caught up. The first season was mainly about characters, surviving, trying to get out of the island while discovering some mystery to the island. The show is not that easy to explain now. Once the forth season got introduced, it got so much more complicated in what they have introduced. All off a sudden there is good vs evil, destiny calling, time travel, alternate realities, bad people who are good people, and so much more. Its like the show is so complicated that you can't really describe LOST the way you would any other tv show or movie. If somebody walked in the middle of the movie Independence Day and asked what is going on. It is easy to explain that aliens are trying to kill everyone and destory planet earth. LOST does not work the same way. The series has adapated so much, that the show cannot be explained so easily. Even people that have watched the tv show from the beginning probably cannot explain the show. My advice to people that have never watched LOST. If you have any questions, please don't ask, because for us that have watched the show we don't know the answers. If we do know the answers, we could explain, but you wouldn't really understand. However I do want to encourage those who have not seen LOST, if you really want to know these answers. Start watching all the episodes starting with season 1 and eventually you will learn the answers all on your own.

The Shoe Illustration

2010-04-03T21:38:00.000-05:00

There are many great unique illustrations that people have created to explain the gospel. There is the bridge illustration, water illustration, and more examples that I can not think of at the moment. Last sunday, we have been teaching our students about salvation. I thought of a great illustration that can explain the gospel, so that everyone can understand. I have to say that I am patenting this idea on my blog, so everybody knows where the idea started. I call this shoe illustration.

I have two similar types of addidas shoes.

If you look at these two types of shoes, you can see that they are similar looking shoes, except that one pair of shoes are blue, the other pair of shoes are orange. Let me first tell you the story of the blue shoes.

These blue shoes, I have owned for a long time. I may have even owned these shoes since my senior year of high school. These shoes have gone through a whole lot of beatings. These shoes walked in the rain, mud, and snow. I used these shoes to climb the highest mountain in Texas, ran almost half a marthon, and so many more memories. If you look at these shoes you can tell that they are old, beat up, and they look like they should maybe be trashed. When you look at these shoes you can see that they are not perfect and there are a lot of stains on them.

These are my orange addidas shoes. These shoes are very beautiful shoes. They look like they were just bought staight from the store. These shoes I have for about two years now. These shoes have walked in this world, I usually wear these shoes when I go to the gym, wal-mart, kroger, chick-fil-a. These shoes have walked the walk as well. These shoes have been to public places, but the shoes look completely brand new.

This is the point. My blue shoes represent how we as people are sinful beings. Our sinful nature makes us ugly and people can see our marks, brandings, our imperfections, and they can see that we are guilty of sin. Just like my shoes deserve to be trashed, we deserve death. My orange shoes represent Christ and how he walked in this world and lived a perfect life and how they were no markings or imperfections on these shoes. Just like these shoes Jesus had no sin on him, he had absolutely no sin on him and how he deservse to be in glory. Lets say that my orange shoes decide to be trashed instead of my blue ones, eventhough the orange ones are beautiful and still in good shape. Its just like that how Christ died and humilated, so that us as dirty, sinful beings can have everlasting life with God. Isn't God so amazing?

Happy Easter!

One of the Best Spring Breaks Ever!

2010-03-18T09:36:00.002-05:00

I just got back from my ski trip with DBSM. I have to say that it was a lot of fun. This had to be one of the best spring breaks ever. I had some great ones in college during UrbEx with collegelife. One of my favorite spring breaks was my senior year and having free ppv and hbo for the entire week. This spring break is definitely in my top 5.There is a couple of things that I did, so that I would remember this trip. I remembered to bring my camera to take pictures and I updated by twitter on my phone, so I can look back on this blog to see the comments made at present time. I have to admit, at the end of the trip I was slacking on my twitter.

have to say that God is so beautiful in His creation. The mountains are so beautiful and I wish I was still there in Colorado because it was so much fun. Here are some pictures.

Here is Our Humble Home in Colorado.

These are the boys having fun sledding down a hill.

Darren gets burried in snow.

Here is my first day snowboarding.

Beautiful on the top of the mountain view.

These are my snowboarding gangsters. We dominated the slopes.

These are my boys in my huddle group. The light was kind of shining brightly on us.

Here are my famous tweets while leaving to Colorado and coming back to Texas:

back at home, wish I was still snowboarding in Colorado.

about 21 hours ago via TwitterGadget

Leaving Colorado

6:50 PM Mar 16th via txt

I am surprised I have not snowboarded off a cliff

4:33 PM Mar 16th via txt

Only one fall on the first route score

1:19 PM Mar 15th via txt

Day 1 Snowboarding was not bad ready for round 2 tomorrow

6 PM Mar 14th via txt

Yep my beard is frozen

5:22 PM Mar 14th via txt

I probably fell around 25 times, this time I am shooting for 20 falls.

3:10 PM Mar 14th via txt

Learning to fall is the key

12:33 PM Mar 14th via txt

about to go snowboarding

9:21 AM Mar 14th via txt

Tubing was awesome its time for devotionals and then bed

10:24 PM Mar 13th via txt

About to go get my snowboard

5:47 PM Mar 13th via txt

There is no fight like a snowball fight

5:00 PM Mar 13th via txt

God is so beautiful!

3:25 PM Mar 13th via txt

In the mall at Denver Colorado

12:56 PM Mar 13th via txt

Currently at Ihop and how did I get this fingernail polish on?

8:27 AM Mar 13th via txt

I see mountains it turns out we are in New Mexico.

7:17 AM Mar 13th via txt

Currently in the bus about to in to Colorado.

7:53 PM Mar 12th via txt

waiting to go on the ski trip.

6:57 PM Mar 12th via web

1 and half hours to work and then 6 hours till skip trip.

Keys to Snowboarding:
1. Learning to fall is going to be very important. (Eating snow is going to taste good)
2. Knowing and finding your balance or you will fall every 10 feet. (There is a good chance you will either fall on your wrists, butt, or face)
3. Facing down the mountain to stop or slow down use your heels. Facing up the mountain to stop or slow down use your toes(looks almost like you are going to do a faceplant).
4. Know when to go faster, so that you don't get stuck anywhere and take the walk of shame.(Note to self do not go on greens)
5. Don't give up and try techniques that work to your strengths. (Get Comfortable Being Uncomfortable)
6. Lastly Have Fun!

I have to say that I had a ton of fun on this trip. I am so glad and thankful to be a part of student ministries. This trip gave me a chance to have a lot of fun with students. It also gave me some great opportunties to connect with them and give them such a great memorable experience with the body of Christ. I am really excited to see where God is going to take our ministry.

The Greatest Meal Of Every Day.

2010-03-07T22:27:00.002-06:00

The other day during huddle group time. My students and I were talking about breakfast. Some were saying that breakfast is not that great, but some say breakfast is really great.

Let me tell you, I used to not be that big a fan of breakfast. When I was younger like in middle school/high school, and college. I did not take advantage of breakfast like I should have. Its when I worked at the world's greatest camp Kids Across America, I understood the greatness of a good breakfast. Eversince then I have never missed a breakfast and I don't ever plan to miss breakfast for the rest of my life(unless I decide to fast).

I have to say this is why I think breakfast gets a bad rap. I understand that we do not always have a glorious breakfast, which means we would think that breakfast is not that great. Sometimes we eat items like cereal, oatmeal, fruit, pop tarts, bagels, Nutrigrain bars, and Granola bars. I am not dogging on any of these items, these are some items that I eat everyday.

When I started working at KAA, I ate breakfast every single morning. I have to say that you start loving the kitchen comos and the cooks. I was introuduced to such good breakfast food. I was introuduced to waffles, pancakes, bacon, sausage, french toast, biscuits, eggs, kolaches, breakfast tacos, and more. I have to say that when you eat meat in the morning, it makes it such a better start to the day. When you eat some good protein in the morning. You are not as hungry throughout the day.

My recommendation is that breakfast is the best meal ever. It gives you a great upstart to your morning and gives you at 60 percent chance to have a good day when people it breakfast. I have to say that I normally eat cereal and oatmeal for most breakfasts. At least one time during the week, I have an amazing breakfast. Let me name you my top 5 list of breakfast items to eat. Lastly I would recommend that you find out your special breakfast and what you truly love.

Top 5 Breakfast to Eat (not necessarily in any order)

1. Chick-Fil-A Chicken Biscuit

2. Breakfast Tacos (Either Rudy's Turkey and Egg Burritos or Mi Casita's Chizo and Egg) special note on tuesdays mi casitas breakfast tacos are already .99 cents.

3. Pancakes w/ a desirable fruit like banannas and strawberrys topped with honey with sausage links or bacon

4. French Toast.

5. Waffles with fruit like blueberrys, strawberrys, banannas, topped with some great honey.

Eat Breakfast It Will Brighten Your Day,

Alan

Btw if anyone wants to eat or cook b-fast with me, I am always down. Thanks to google images for providing me those great breakfast images.

Who Would Have Known Tweeting Could Be So Awesome?

2010-03-02T11:19:00.000-06:00

I am really slacking on this blog. I only had one entry for my blog last month and I have to say that I am really disappointed in myself. I notice that one thing I have been doing lately and is a lot of fun is twitter. Here is my twitter account to see my tweets. www.twitter.com/alansivakumaran. I learned how to even tweet from my phone and those usually make the best tweets because they are on the spot and they are actually happening. I think that Twitter can be fun if you pay some attention and put down some random things and important things to post. Twitter is fun for everyone. Here are my top 5 tweets from myself:
5. Finally beat the obstacle course take that wii fit.
4. its 5:25 and I am tired, time for a nap. Man U.S.A. women's hockey is killing Russia.
3. from my status updates, i can figure out when i need to stop crock-potting.
2. last night I thought I could not sleep b/c of Shutter Island, it turns out getting mooned by my roommate is a much scarier image.
1. ConanOBrien Today I interviewed a squirrel in my backyard and then threw to commercial. Somebody help me. (this is a retweet from Conan O'Brien. but it constitutes as a tweet from me b/c I retweeted on my name.)

I guess this is more of a blog to let you know that you should follow my twitter. I am out.

Texting and Driving at the Same Time Can Be Destructive. What?

2010-02-16T10:02:00.000-06:00

The other day I got a speeding ticket. I didn't realize I was in a school zone and I went one too many miles of the speed limit, so I got a ticket. I was not happy, but ultimately I know it was my own fault and I deserved the ticket that I receieved. I went to the court and I decided to go to Defensive Driving and pay a lower fee.

I decided to go to Defensive Driving and it was qutie entertaining. There were a couple things that I learned about how dangerous texting and driving can be. I also learned about not hitting a cop on the highway when he pulls someone over on the shoulder. There is one thing I took out of the entire session. There were two things that the teacher stressed the most. She stressed to not text and drive at the same time and not drinking and driving. Every single week she communicates these facts hoping that we won't text or drink and drive at the same time. It must be hard for her because she knows that people are taking this class to get out of a ticket. Ultimately some people are going to revert back to their original ways.

Some reasons I believe that people will revert back to their same ways. I believe as humas we have pride and we believe we are such great drivers. We are able to multi-task to be able to do two things at once. I realize something that driving is very important and can be difficult. While we drive we are responsible for not only our own lives, the people in our car, but also other people on the road. If we lose focus for just one second, we can make a destructive decision. Once that event has happened, there is no way to turning back. I realize myself personally that no matter how good a driver I am, I can still lose focus and make a terrible mistake.

Lastly, I do relate myself to my defensive driving teacher. The teacher is urging people not to text and drive, so that we can be more focused drivers and be safer drivers and not endanger lives. I myself see myself as someone who urges for my students to have a relationship with Jesus Christ. I believe that when you accept and surrender your life to Christ. Not only are you saved, but you are also making the world a better place b/c now Christ can live through us. At the same time, who knows what difference I a making. I know that if one student changes through my ministry, it was all worth it. I will be that one person(hopefully I am not the only one) for my teacher and I will not text and drive.

Where Does This Joy Come From?

2010-01-26T13:44:00.001-06:00

My students and I have been going through apologetics. Apologetics means defending the Christian Faith. We have gone through all sorts of questions, like was Jesus a liar? Is Jesus God? Is the Bible reliable? and so on. I think these are all good questions that we need to consider about our faith. As a believer my self what really hits me and convicts me is this one questions. Who is Jesus and What Makes Him so Special to me?

In my life, I realize I love lots of things in the secular world. I love my Texas teams(Rangers, Mavericks, Cowboys, and Stars). I love my tv shows LOST, The Office, 30 Rock, Arrested Development, Tonight Show with Conan O'Brien(well used to be), and thats all I can think of right now. I think about how much time and energy is spent devoted to such things. People say the Rangers, Cowboys, Mavericks, and Stars suck and no matter how bad they are I am up there to defend them. Same thing with just shows on tv, I will defend them and talk to people about how great they are. I have no problem defending it because I like them. There is nothing wrong with any of that. I think its fine to have your favorite teams, shows, tv personalities. I dont' want anyone to get the wrong idea, I don't think there is anything wrong with liking tv shows, sports, entertainment, and etc. I believe that God creates us and gives us those interests for his purposes.

When I think about those things, then I start thinking about Jesus and whether or not I am willing to talk or boast to people about how great He is. When I started thinking about it in that way, I started becoming convicted about my love for Christ being expressed to the way that I love my Texas teams, sports, and celeberties. I wonder do people know me as the one who loves all those teams, shows, and celeberties? I learn that often I do fall short in boasting about my savior. I think about people like David Brainerd, Billy Graham, John Piper, and their love for Christ. One person in the bible that I believe had a great love for Christ was Paul.

"According to my earnest expectation and hope, that I will not be put to shame in anything, but that with all boldness, Christ will even now, as always, be exalted in my body whether by life or by death. For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain." Philipians 1:20-21

Paul is saying that he hopes that for his life and body would show that Christ will always be exalted. I believe that if we truly love Christ and have joy in Him in our daily lifes. I feel that we are willing to defend our faith in Him, wanting to know Him more, boast about how great He truly is to others, others will see Christ within us, and so many more endless opportunities to glorify God's name.

Who is Jesus and What Makes Him Special to Me?

Later,
Alan

I Will Always Be on Team Conan.

2010-01-21T10:12:00.000-06:00

It is official, Conan has signed the deal to part ways from NBC and Friday night is his very last tonight show. It is very sad for me because Conan is very funny and I believe that he could have turned around his ratings, just like he did with the Late Night Show. I feel bad for the way he has been treated, but I guess that is how show business works. I just don't understand NBC's commitment to Jay Leno. I feel bad that NBC doesn't see the future and the greatness that Conan can bring. I have a feeling that Conan will be back and he will do even better on a new station. I really hope that Conan ends up betting Jay Leno head to head in competition. Look below and here is the first clip from the Tonight Show with Conan O'Brien, it is really funny.(If you are on facebook, you need to go to my blog AlanSivakumaran.blogspot.com, then you can see the video) Love you Conan, look forward to seeing you on tv again.

So Many Different Ways to Make a PBJ Sandwhich.

2010-01-18T16:25:00.000-06:00

Yesterday I went to this cool hangout the Wiesner's house and I decided to fast dinner that night b/c it was right after church and thought that it would be a great time. I left around 10:30 and I was quite hungry, so I decided to second dinner b/c I did not make a fast for second dinner. I did not want to cook anything heavy, so I decided to make a PBJ sandwhich, which I realized there are so many ways to make one.

First Step: Choosing Your Bread

It sounds simple, but there are many types of bread you can choose. White, Wheat, Honey Oat, Pumpernickel, and etc. Once you make the choice,then you have to determine whether or not you are going to toast your bread or not. There are advantages and disadvantages. For not toasting, you have the advantage of easier spreading, but it might be too soft. For toasting, the bread is harder, however it is nice and toast.

Second Step: Speading Your Peanut Butter

You have to make the choice of whether you want to have chunky peanut butter and smooth peanut butter. Chunky Peanut butter is great because there is a crunch, but its harder to spread. Smooth peanut butter is great because it is rich, smooth, and easy to spread, but it does miss the crunch effect. Special note, when sreading the peanut butter on the bread if you have any left over peanut butter, then you should place the rest of it on the other bread as well.

Third step: Jam or Jelly

All honesty I am not sure the complete difference b/w Jam or Jelly. There many types of jams strawberry, blackberry, grape, apple, and so many options. I am a fan of Jam especially strawberry jam because there are chunks of strawberry's in them. In my opinion you can never have too much jam. Once you choose your jam or jelly, then you should spred that jam/jelly on the other bread.

That is the process of making a Peanut butter and jelly sandwhich. Eventhough it sounds simple, it is a lot harder of a process than it looks. I personally think it is best to slice a bananna and throw it in the middle of the sandwhich. If you put some honey in it. It will be great sandwhich. Here is a great song:

If you want put down your favorite type of PBJ sandwhich?

Holla at Your Boi,
Al-Dawg.

Ultimately How Can I Lose, Your Right I Really Can't

2010-01-14T18:35:00.000-06:00

Today after a month of preparation I took the fatal and I mean fatal GRE exam to help me determine if I can make it into graduate school. I have to say this before I even took the exam I was encouraged and realized that no matter what the results are that I will win.

There are many things that I take for granted, but what I never realized was the support system that I have. I post an update on my facebook status to pray for me on this exam and many friends are wishing luck, giving encouragment, texting me, calling me and giving their prayers to me. I lead a huddle group of 8th grade students and yesterday they were praying for me that I do well on the exam.

1 Thessalonians 5:9-11 says "For God has not destined us for wrath, but for obtaining salvation through our Lord Jesus Christ, who died for us, so that whether we are awake or aslep, we will live together with Him. Therefore encourage one another and build up one another just as you are also doing"

These verses makes me think of how lucky I have become. It is beautiful to have friend, family, and the church on your side no matter what you do in life. Whether I take this exam again or not, I know I can always turn to friends and family for prayers and I know that they will be there for me. No matter what the result, I know that I have already won and am really lucky to have fans.

Blogging Out,
Alan

P.S. I promise another music video is coming out soon. I would never neglect my fans.

I Promise to Update This Soon.

2010-01-11T12:17:00.001-06:00

Hey,
I decided to put some creative energy into a blog. I have created some successful blogs in the past such as Zanga and either I journal or you journal(I forgot the name quite honestly). Anything connected to google, you know is legit.